Idup coceles

I was barely 2 years old, and living in grandma’s house, a staunch UMNO supporter, and I was spouting Hidup Sosialis (Live on Socialist) taught by my dad who was in Parti Sosialis Rakyat Malaysia then. It amuses him until now that I with my two years lisp would shout it loudly in a household and family who was pro-government, but that was how I was taught from the very beginning to always choose for myself what I feel right and not what the majority thought was right. Dad raised a rebel right from the start. All my life my dad taught me to look at things from all sides and he also taught me to look for things beneath the surface because so much is hidden if we are not taught to look, so many things easily manipulated so we are fooled, that it became second nature for me to think differently from others because my eyes saw different things than others.

Because of his lessons I was supplemented in my political intelligence so it took over the spoon feeding culture of our school and I always question everything that was told to me, so that I never take things at face value. As I grew up though, I noticed that I become too passionate about stuff that I care about that it threatens to overwhelm me, I put the brakes on and tried to be obsessed about natural teenagers stuffs like boy bands etc, and to my dad dismay I seem to limit my reading materials to romance novels, he is still upset I won’t read ‘The Lords of the Rims’. But I guess I chose to keep my sanity rather than be consume by a cause that will sapped the life out of me just by the fact I will be in the minority and it can take me to the end of my life without any result, so I chose to concentrate to personal causes I can win.

But from time to time, I will be affected especially when I see so many not seeing the right things, and I will speak up and then of course time and again be disappointed because not many could accept what I say because they weren’t expose to the same thing I was, wasn’t brought up the way I was, of course I’ll find a few who could agree, but too few to mention, so then again I decide to keep my peace ‘til the next time I am roused again. LOL

Phil was brought up in a different culture altogether, where how I was thought to think was an anomaly, in his it is the norm, and he is of the same mold of dad, you have to know and be aware of all these things and fight for the cause in any small way you can, both of them passionate but strong enough to not be consumed, so like dad, he does not really get it why someone like me choose to avoid or to be more accurate hide myself. So the way Phil sees it maybe she does not know what to read or what to look at, so he started giving me books, and pointed out news for me to look at, and yes I admit, I should try be like them, be aware yet not let it affect me too much, care but not let it be my whole life, which I must say is very difficult. But as Phil says, I am still growing up, so I will learn.

So for my friends, this few days I finally snapped and couldn’t keep my silence, if my opinion differ from yours, I hope you know, I come from a different angle altogether, not that I don’t respect your opinion but I am trying to give a different view which you might have missed. But I know everyone of you appreciate that others can disagree and not be frightened by it, because the right to having a different opinion is what being human is all about, there are times when we are individuals and there are times when we are part of a collective. Live and let live!