I love You and I Miss You!

The first hello
Was polite and sweet
Our first conversation
Was stilted and awkward
But soon u were finishing my sentences
And I yours.
Never a day gone by
Without at least a hello, how are u doing?
And soon, an ‘I miss you,’
It was sweet while it lasted
Twin souls colliding in accidental
Universe coincidence,
But who would have thought that
Short good bye and see you again next week,
Turn to months of silence,
I didn’t even say goodbye,
Just told you to have fun and come back soon,
Will be missing you a bunch,
And now
What do I do
With my breaking heart?
Will you ever come back
And stop this aching pain?

rya,
24/07/09
5.00 pm

Missing

I don’t know what else I can say, I have written I miss you, I have asked around after you. Still there is no sign of you anywhere. I received invites from other people to join them every day, even close friends are wondering why I still stay with you, when you have been gone a while now.

God, where could you be?

What kind of trouble are you in?

I have been so worried about you, and I miss you so badly, I don’t know I could miss anyone this much. There are days, I can’t stop crying, just thinking about you. I can’t understand why you have become so important in my life. We have never met. We have never exchanged more than basic info, on your part at least, I have told you my life from A-Z I think.

But it hurts so much that you are not around. I dream of you, I think of you, and I cry because of you. Is this love?

Both my sisters think so, my brother thinks so, but I am trying to deny it, because in my hearts of heart, I know if I admit it, I’d be lost, I don’t think I can fight and soon I would give up and I don’t want to give up yet.

Oh, I pray to God every day for your return, for your safety, and I hope at least to get to hear you say goodbye. At least there will be closure. And I can move on, once and for all, rather than be in this limbo of not knowing.

Sad

I have been so sad lately. I have been without my happy juice for nearly a month now. God! I don't know what happened to him. He told us one day that he was going on a short holiday and will be back on Monday, and it has been 4 Mondays already and I haven't seen any sign of him. I have been so worried, and it seems he lost contact or been out of contact from everyone else also, even his friends.I miss him, and I have needed to talk to him so badly these past few days. God, you brought him to me, bring him back! I need...

On another point of sadness, yesterday I watch MJ's tribute and it made me cry especially when his daugther tearily spoke. He has always been one of my favourite and losing him affected me, I grew up listening and watching MJ and his songs has inspired me to be a better person. I hope he is at peace now, and is where he should be, I will miss him.

My tears has been well used up this past month, I hope I'll be smiling soon!