The other day, he and I had the sweetest conversation on Skype, but at the same time it was heartbreakingly sad. He was telling me how much he loves me but that leads to how much he is missing me and even though both of us know if we work at it someday we’ll find a way to be together, but the promise of someday pales, when we need each other now. It is really hard when you laugh and you know the other person would appreciate the joke and he is not there to share it, and telling it after the fact is just not the same.
I have actually been torturing myself today, listening to Lady Antebellum’s Need You Now, but it says exactly what I feel most of the time nowadays. I am not saying I am moping around all day missing him; I have distractions, daily life chores that keep me busy, but at the back of my mind he is always there, and I wonder if everyone in love feels that way or is my feelings amplified because he is so far away?
Well for now I guess I just have to plod along and hope life has better plan for us along the way, and maybe in the meanwhile I will find a way to better handle the misery of missing him so much.
