Together

He told me that it was easier

if we could have just met and stayed friends,

but we had to fall in love

and put us on this journey

threaded with nails on our hearts

for each day we spend apart.

People talks and says

if he is taking this long

he is not serious.

But they weren’t

the one who saw love in his eyes

when he looks at me.

They weren’t the one who saw

that despair was kept at bay

when we are together.

They weren’t the one who felt

safe in his embrace.

But then again they are not the ones

walking in these shoes of mine

so let them talk

while I patiently waits

for his hand to clasp mine

and finally we can walk this road together.

Lucky

I am really the luckiest girl I know, if luck is counted as the people who care and love me, or if blessings received are taken account of and of opportunities that come my way. Last month I had the opportunity to visit a city I’d never thought I’d get a chance to see, and to top it off I get to go with one of my dearest friend. She made it all possible of course, and went above and beyond to make sure I had the best experience in my life. Thank you kak Limah, you are the best. Traipsing around the back alley of the Grand Bazaar is an experience I’ll never forget, and the cruise on the Marmara Sea in the Bosphorus Strait will be on my mind for a long while, it was beautiful. Then on my last day you made it memorable with the view of people fishing on the bridge. I love Istanbul, the city, the people, the food, the tea, everything made an impression on me. I could see why you always seem happy when you describe your stay in Turkey, it is a remarkable place.

Then I got to spend a month with Phil. It gave me the opportunity to have a lot of heart to heart discussion, we didn't resolve much, situations still remain the same, and I don’t know when we will be able to be together in a permanent way in the same place and time yet, but it helps me resolve that it is what we both want and we have to have faith in God’s plan for us. I don’t know if I had overlook an easier route for us and I know we are not happy with how things are and it begs the question of whether we are really serious about it, and i know dad is worried and not liking it, but what can we do? We can only plan and hope for the best, the rest is up to the Almighty.

So despite of me feeling rotten that I am half a world away from my other half, I realize that in so many ways I am really blessed and lucky and I should hold on to that and hope things will work out to how I want it soon.